It's been a busy week. Various and sundry things have eaten away at most of my discretionary time, and I feel behind on commitments. I'm not really behind, just fearing that I will be behind. If needed I could teach a class or two in each of my courses without having prepared my class notes; I don't have to get graded work to students by the next class, etc. Being prepared is a large portion of my self-esteem, how I measure if I've had a good day, etc.
I've been thinking about this lately; I have given too much power to my To-Do list over my sense of my self. I am only as good as my accomplishments, or so I act. I need to make the list more of a tool and less of a goal.
